Disjointed

Well . . .here we are again at shortly before 4:00 in the morning!  It's been several months since I've made a posting, and I guess God's reminding me that He needs a little time with me. These past few months have been filled with several obstacles/opportunities, and time to just think about where I am and where I want to be.  Over these months I've battled numerous sinus and bronchial infections, fallen off my back porch, and met the sidewalk coming at a very fast pace toward me (sprained my wrist, dislocated my knee--walked on it for two months in pain, and messed up my elbow in the process), but thankfully, no broken bones!  I've taken antibiotics and steroid shots for the pain, and have felt rather useless for a long time.

I've also felt out of the loop.  I've been transferred to third grade from second, moved classrooms, and am now going back to ESL with preparations for moving again!  I'll know more about where my new classroom will be located within the next couple of weeks--hopefully.  I wasn't planning to return to school until around August 3, but will need to get my "stuff" moved out for the new teacher to move into my classroom, so I guess within the next couple of weeks, I will be relocating again.  I worry about my students who were counting on me being there in third grade for them, and I worry about my future ESL students who will need to double up in order to prepare for the STAAR exams in the future. 

Over the summer, I re-entered the Principal Academy with Texas A & M--Texarkana to gain mid management certification, so I can possibly utilize this doctorate in educational leadership and work in a leadership position with international students.  I have now reached a point where I can receive a probationary certification here in Texas, and only lack 6 more hours for the principal coursework to be completed, but I don't know why I continue to work on this certification.  It seems I'll never be in a leadership position in this current district. . .or maybe my leadership days are over.  It seems after I reached age 50, no one wants to look at my credentials anymore--just chunk the resume to the side.

Through all of this, God has continued to remind me that even though I try my best to control my life and my actions, He is the one who remains in control.  Well Lord, it's 4:00 in the morning, and I put it all into your hands. . .my life, my work, my worries, my fears. . .I give them all over to you.  Do with them as you will, and use my life for your glory, and not as a stumbling stone in the lives of others.  Restore my joy, and renew my life.